I have to tell you that there are times when I get very discouraged, and if it weren’t for the Lord, and my faith in Him, I don’t know where or what I would do. I can tell you that He has brought me through many things, and continues to take care of me. Even though I can hardly take care of myself or my family, He still provides for me, gives me what I need, and I still rejoice in Him. I won’t say that I understand why certain things have happened in my life the way they have, but I look at it like this. If I hadn’t gone through the abuse, the alcohol, the busted marriages, the chronic pain I live with, I wonder if I would have the sense of love and wonder that I now have in my heart. Would I be as willing to love and help others? Would I have the ability to help others with the things they go through. Would I be able to look at the stars in the night time sky, or see a hummingbird in flight and see the hand of God? I would be less than honest if I said that I had never asked “Why Me?” Then when I take a good hard look at my life, I think “Why Not Me?” Sometimes, I have to remind myself that He is God, and that He can do anything He wants with my life. He can give, He can take, He can do as He will with me. Yet, He does NOT change. I have lived with Jesus long enough to know that He is ever with me. That His word was, is, and will always be true. I know from my experience in living with Him that He loves me, that He has the absolute best in store for me, and that He will never let me go. I’m reminded of 2 Co 12:10 ” Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.” There are days when I’m strong, days when I’m weak, but He remains the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. How grateful I am for that.
“I am the Lord, I change not.”
It is well for us that, amidst all the variableness of life, there is One whom change cannot affect; One whose heart can never alter, and on whose brow mutability can make no furrows. All things else have changed-all things are changing. The sun itself grows dim with age; the world is waxing old; the folding up of the worn-out vesture has commenced; the heavens and earth must soon pass away; they shall perish, they shall wax old as doth a garment; but there is One who only hath immortality, of whose years there is no end, and in whose person there is no change. The delight which the mariner feels, when, after having been tossed about for many a day, he steps again upon the solid shore, is the satisfaction of a Christian when, amidst all the changes of this troublous life, he rests the foot of his faith upon this truth-“I am the Lord, I change not.”
The stability which the anchor gives the ship when it has at last obtained a hold-fast, is like that which the Christian’s hope affords him when it fixes itself upon this glorious truth. With God “is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.” What ever his attributes were of old, they are now; his power, his wisdom, his justice, his truth, are alike unchanged. He has ever been the refuge of his people, their stronghold in the day of trouble, and he is their sure Helper still. He is unchanged in his love. He has loved his people with “an everlasting love”; he loves them now as much as ever he did, and when all earthly things shall have melted in the last conflagration, his love will still wear the dew of its youth. Precious is the assurance that he changes not! The wheel of providence revolves, but its axle is eternal love.
“Death and change are busy ever,
Man decays, and ages move;
But his mercy waneth never;
God is wisdom, God is love.”